let me out or let me in.

I like to make plans.
I like to make plans and then pen/pencil them down in my japanese pig organiser.
I like plans that let me dress up in pretty outfits.
If you’ve seen my japanese pig organiser you would know i love to make plans.

Yesterday, I was making plans. I had my whole semester figured out. I would do this more, I would do that less. I would see this more, I would see that less… It seemed so brilliant.

But I left someone out.

I’m sorry, you’ll just have to wait till the next empty day, or when somebody pulls out. Sure, I’m all yours then. I’ll see you then God.

cuddles and attention.

i doubt flinging shreds of childish pride into the drain will amount to much. The Twos say yes yes yes, do it do it do it. The Ones says no no no, restrain restrain restrain. Should I empty the little that i own, the little that i treasure on to the road and wait for a vehicle to roll over it and watch it bleed? The Half says do as you please both ways you would have to watch something die.

i do things more to avoid pain and less to gain pleasure.

I’m so glad i keep on forgetting to give the krispy kremes away. Since they are in the fridge, getting old, i might as well eat them, hence avoiding the pain of seeing them rot.

swingers

’tis the month of grinding teeth and blood shot eyes. you have every right to colour me yellow, pour carbon-based liquids on me and heat my surrounds up; but i wish you wouldn’t. i wish you would say something, even if its laced with poison and scorn.

petty cash and fights.

Reason to be an accountant : TAX EVASION!

-Kelly on why she wants to be an accountant just before our accounting exam

 

Idle Songs.

Singapore is good, i sleep a lot, i eat a lot and i play with Cassius a lot. I shopped a lot today, and decided that if i were to ever get married, it would be a nude wedding.

It been such a girlish fantasy of mine for the longest time to have the million dollar wedding. Pretty purple and red roses will sit on tables; orchids will welcome the thousand guests; sounds of simon and garfunkel and ACDC will quietly hum in the background; I’ll spend the night switching from gown to gown each one just a little bit more perfect than the first; I’ll be skinny and tall from my diet regime and 4 inch heels; my pals and I will run around taking photos silly; we (my surprise husband and I) will receive heaps of angpohs; and everything else will be perfect, sweet and wonderful.

Though that would be ideal, I realised that it is so much more important to have a beautiful relationship/marriage than it is to have the perfect wedding. It would be brilliant to have both the perfect wedding and the perfect marriage, but given a choice between the two, I’d pick the latter.

Ergo I’m going to ditch the wedding ideas for now and focus on something more substantial (also because I’m not getting married in the near future).

On a totally different note, I must tell you how much I enjoyed hanging out with almost everybody didn’t really get a chance to hang out with during my three weeks of living in my room. It was really hunky-dory to just sit and talk; to eat and talk; to laugh and talk; to walk and talk; and to watch a gross amount of films and talk.

Anywho, I hope I get to see everybody in Singapore before I have to plop myself back on to the aluminum bird and migrate from the heat.