and it is something i apsire to beeee.

This is quite retarded. I feel quite retarded too. I’m trying to write my personal statement for Murdoch’s vet school. I think my essay should have more depth and needs more things other than my feelings, my time at the vet’s, and why it stimulates me in a way that business cannot. I’m quite embarassed to call this my personal statement. It sounds cliche.

I kind of pity the people I have employed to read my essay, though they have all done a marvelous job of editing it and squeezing out nice things to say about it. Still I am ashamed to send it to a vet student, because they are going to say, ‘hey this is not actually what happens you know!’ or not be so nice and say, ‘hey! you made that shit up! LIES!!’.

POO. DUNG. POOP.

darkness of the night

It’s harder than it seems and more worrying than I thought. To be where I am now, and to be one step closer to standing at a forked road where both roads lead into dark forests, makes me more anxious than anything else. Sometimes I just want to hide in my apartment, be messy, not clean up after myself, and stream a million movies, instead of facing the horrifying prospects. I’m not emotional or anything, but I guess I’m just acknowledging the reality of the imminent future. I have been whining and whining and whining about this for ages, I know. But all these things really do scare me just as much as having burglars and thieves in my building, so thus I whine.

There are so many other things that worry me, so many things that make me run back under my covers and hug Watson to death, but obviously I’m not going to attempt to bore you with them. But I guess the thing I want to learn from this, from me being afraid, is that there is nothing to be afraid of, nothing to worry about. God is here. God will take care of everything. God still does work for the good of those who love him.

I feel as if I keep repeating myself. I do that all the time I guess.

Trenches

Art of the Trench

I would like a Burberry Baby pleaaase!!!

Anyway, go check out The Art of the Trench. It’s soo amazing cool, if you are the type of person who gets excited easily. There are so many pictures of people with wonderfully good-looking trenches, that it makes me want to go to Thailand and get one too, since I can’t afford one here.

Yuccck, it’s so late and I’m not at the library. Poooo.

headphones

taken from The Satorialist.

THAT’S THE EXACT SET OF HEADPHONES I WANT TO GET FROM FREDFLARE! I’m crossing my fingers so hard, that they’ll still be in stock when I place my order. And now that I’ve seen it on someone else, it looks even better. I don’t really know whether the sound quality is wonderful, but hey, I’m no music student.  I’ve read good reviews about it though! I just REALLY REALLY like it.  I’m so happy that the ultimate friend in the states has agreed (I’m assuming she has) to be my headphones mule (I say that with a lot of love). I want a whole lot of other things, but since I’m going to Thailand and I can buy everything else there. But for now, I must have these headphones, thank you.

GOOP!

I love Goop!

Goop – Gwyneth Paltrow’s some sort of very cool blog. There’s stuff on clothes, cooking, places to go, things to do and stuff I don’t really read. She doesn’t update really often though, but I like!